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| Total Subscribers: 122 Okay so apparently i haven't been updating this regularly, and i'm sorry for that. But you knowwww, i haven't been getting many comments either so it's not ALL my fault, right. :) haha. so Bobby broke up with me after 6 months but whatever, haha. ICONS: 26
QUOTES: 26  
I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you’re not around,
And the fact that you didn’t call
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
Not even close…
Not even a little bit…
Not even at all.
were not sarcastic; were hilarious
were not annoying; were just cooler than you
were not bitches; we just dont like you
were not obsessed; were just best friends
 
he smiles. it's a sweet, subtle smile.
the type of smile that would break your
heart if you stared at it for too long. dance in the rain just to get soaked
call a friend just because you care
smile just because you can
and laugh just to make people stare
 
you should never be afraid too be a little crazier --|»
because in the end _ the sweetest kind
of love is the one that made you ... |[lose control]| Having a BeStFriEnd is like having a sister
you cant get rid of . n know whatever
you do they'll always be there ...
  [listen to your friends] when
they tell you he's a -bad thing-
because they can see what
you refuse not to. Now I'm itching for the tall grass & longing for the breeze.
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe.
  & I know it's easy to say, but it's harder to feel this way.
I miss you more than I should, & than I thought I could.
I cant get my mind off of you. She loves you. I can tell.
Just look into her eyes, its there.
A love so strong it bleeds through her skin.
When you're around, she glows.
  She hasn't smiled much lately
& she doesn't know why. i'm mostly memories,
mostly missed opportunities,
mostly minor tragedies,
i'm mostly you and me.
  do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? you dont want to smile, and you don't want to fake being happy. but at the same time, you don't know exactly what is wrong either. there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. if you could want ANYTHING in the world it would be to be alone. people have stopped being comforting.. and being alone never was. at least when you're alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who wont take 'i don't know' for an answer. you feel the way you do just BECAUSE. you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait ..
Live your life to it's fullest.
Laugh at all the things that don't matter.
Love with all that you have & more
  A true friend won't question your motives, will hug you just cause they can sense that you need it, will never fall for your famous false smile that fools everyone else, will let you listen to your favorite song over & over in the car even when they don't like the song, will tell you the truth even when you'd rather not hear it, & will never leave your side, in good times or in bad ones, now don't tell me you think you find people that are that special to your life everyday.
we have four years to be irresponsible
relax; work is for people with jobs. you'll never
remember class time, but you'll remember time
hanging out with your friends. so stay out late
go out on a tuesday night when you have a
paper due wednesday. spend money you dont have
& drink until the sunrise. the work never ends
but highschool does
 
Because things change.
And friends leave.
Life doesn't stop for anybody.
Maybe the only thing you really need
Is one person to believe in you
 
but all those magazines are wrong, because
they don't know the first thing about real beauty
Smile when you're sad. Laugh when you want to break down & cry. Dance when you don't want to move. Hug someone you're not close to. Sing in the shower. Run through the sprinklers. Play in the rain. Spin around in circles & fall cause you're so dizzy. Give to the needy. Eat junk food. Have sleep-overs with friends, even when you're older, & stay up all night talking about the good times. Love the ones who hurt you. Tell someone off. Take chances. Live life.  
It's like going too high on the playground swings and taking polaroids to show where it all began. Laying down, out of breath, pink cheeks. It's love and I don't want anything else. It just feels right for once in my life.
My lips they tremble from this silence
And I'd rather chew on razor blades
Than say the words I wanna say
 
I know I've made a lot ot stupid mistakes,
but the worst one was thinking the person
who hurt me the most would never do it again.
i heard somewhere that everyone has at least
5 dreams a night .. even if they don`t remember
them. that`s what .. 30 billion dreams? one of
them has to be about me . . . <3  
i want a boy ... who would shove ice cream in my face. who would wrestle with me. who shows me off to his friends and family. who treats me with respect. who would call me at four in the morning, to tell me he can't stop thinking about me. who sings to me, even if he can't. who could break my heart but would never dream of it.
Sure it doesn't seem like it
That boy is amazing
That boy can make you smile
Just by talking to him
That boy can take your breathe away
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haha, 123. ohk, so sorry it's been a long time AGAIN!
Bobby & I are finally going out again so I've been pretty
Busy making that work out & stuff, so yah. :] hahaa.
Plus my mom is now limiting my time on the computer,
Because it seems that my grades are going down again.
So yah, that should be enough excuses for almost 2 months. :] Quotes; 22
Icons; 24  
a shattered mirror, a bleeding fist
all because she couldn't ever
face herself again <3
I'm not some little play toy you can treat without
care. I have feelings and emotions. my heart has
gone through hardships and heartbrakes
throughout my life. so please, please
be careful with it
  She stares at herself in the mirror
She doesn't notice how gorgeous she is.
She doesn't give herself credit for being such a great person.
A wonderful friend.
A great listener.
And she helps all her friends that need it.
Even when it's a bad time for her.
He doesn't see her beauty
& now neither does she the reason it hurts so much to seperate is
because our souls are connected. maybe
they always have been and will be. maybe
we've lived a thousand lives before this
one and in echo of them, we found eachother.
--The Notebook.
  Life takes turns when you dont want it to
take turns, and thats just a part of life, its just
something that we have to accept, knowing
that tommorow, is not promised
-- Nehemiah, The Real World Austin
oh yes, the past can hurt, but the way i see it,
you can either run from it, or learn from it.
--The Lion King.
 
We couldn't find any swingsets,
so we drove all night listening to
mixtapes x33 Each new school year:
is another crush,
is another big fight,
is another teacher to make fun of,
is another time to spend with your friends,
is another year full of drama,
another year wishing it was over,
another year day dreaming through class,
another year learning something from that crazy teacher,
another year trying to stay out of trouble while breaking the rules,
another year trying to find you,
Isn't school great?
  talk to her; she's a girl,
the reason she doesn't talk first,
is because she has this vision of a boy
who will go out of his way for her it's like poker; what do you do when you have a crappy hand?
be safe & fold...keep what you've got? or do you go all in,
hoping you'll fool them all, in that case, you win the pot.
even if your poker face is terrible, remember; take the chance
you've got one shot before he re-deals...go with it  
the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit
on the swings with, never saying a word to each
other; and you walk away feeling like it was the
[ best conversation of your life ]
she didnt feel her heart speed up everytime
the boy walked by anymore. she didnt want
to run & hide so she wouldnt fall over &
over again. she was okay looking for a new
boyfriend, & suddenly, the thought of him
being with somebody else didnt hurt her
anymore. she wanted him to be happy &
she wanted the same for herself. she let go
of the last year of her life, & she let go of
her total & complete passion
  i`d never make a [promise] . . i don`t
intend to keep. so when i say forever
. . f o r e v e r 's w h a t i m e a n <3
He could do something
horrible to me. But all
he has to do is smile that
stupid smile he has :: and
i`m his. <3
 
I always tell the girls: "Never take it seriously".
If you never take it seriously then you never get hurt.
If you never get hurt then you always have fun.
whoever made up the saying;;
"you don't know what you have until it's gone"
is wrong. becuase you know exactly what you have
when you have it. you just don't know how much
you need it until you can't have it anymore
  if i’m laughing, she’s usually why.
without her, i swear i would die [: she didn't want tonight to end
because for once, her unsteady
world had a perfect ending  
&& you know those kind of days
when you're just so sad and gloomy
and you move around all day? well
that all changes when i see him
she asked,
"If I walked away, would you come after me?"
he said, "No."
she turned away crying and began walking away.
& then he grabbed her hand and said,
"Because I wouldn't let you go." <3
  Heres to the kids, this is for you.
The kids who would rather spend
their night with a bottle of
whiskey and Atreyu playing on
their headphones than go to some
vomit-stained high school party.
Here's to the kids whose 11:11
wish was wasted on one person
who will never be there for them.
Here's to the kids whose idea
of a good night is sitting
on the hood of a car watching the stars.
Here's to the kids who were
never too good at life
but were still, wicked cool.
Here's to the kids who listened to
Fall Out Boy and Hawthorne Heights
before they were on MTV
and blame MTV for ruining their life.
Here's to the kids who care more
about music then they do about
their haircuts. Here's to the kids
who have crushes on a stupid friend.
Here's to the kids who hum
"last train home"
when they're stuck at home
dateless, on a saturday night.
Here's to the kids who have
ever had a broken heart
from someone they saw every day.
Here's to the kids who spend their
days in photo booths with
their best friends.
Here's to the kids who are
straight-up smartasses and just dont' care.
Here's to the kids who speak their mind.
Here's to the kids who consider
screamo a lullaby for going to sleep.
Here's to the kids who second-guess
themselves on everything they do.
Here's to the kids who will never have
100 percent confidence in themselves,
and to the kids who are okay with that
HERE'S TO THE KIDS. THIS IS FOR YOU. "As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe.
It's not that we don't want to, it's that too
much has happened and we can't." - Now and Then  
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| Total Subscribers: 119 wow, it's been a reeeaaalllllyy long time. But don't worry, I didn't forget about you guys. :] I just got really caught up in the holiday season and whatnot, so I should be updating somewhat more regularly again. :] leave comments+subscribe+all that good stuff alright? Quotes: 36 Icons: 36 Heres to the guys who love us,
the losers who left us and,
the lucky ones who get to meet us. i hate how being just friends
is good enough for you.
i hate how you joke around
just like we used to.
i hate how you just go on
like it doesn't hurt you.  
Remember when truth or dare
Consisted of eating bugs,
& the only holding hands you did
Was with your friends
When "getting some" meant
Stealing the cookie jar
& boys didn’t matter
[cause they had cooties]
Yea those were the days.. It's never gonna happen. We're not meant to be.
We're opposites. We fight all the time, and we get on
eachother's nerves. We drive eachother crazy. But we're
like a fire; there's just a little spark there that will
burst us into flames.  
I am learning that perfection isn't what
matters. in fact, it's the very thing that
can destroy you if you let it. everything about him made her
long for something she had never known  
knowing that something will never happen
doesn't make you want it any less. sometimes you gotta quit thinking so much.
if it feels right, it probably is. so just go with it.  
so if you think that I didn't say goodbye
to you because you don't mean as much
to me as everybody else, you're wrong.
it's because you mean more to me I am not pushing you away...
I am holding on for dear life, but
I need you to need me back.  
well there comes a time in life when you gotta crawl ;;
lose your grip - trip and fall. cuz when you can't lean
on no one else, thats when you find yourself. --Lonestar && so once again, I feel my heart break
over something that was in my head
but don`t forget I meant every word
I should`ve left unsaid.  
baby, i lied on the phone the other day
with tears streaming down my cheeks ;
i said i was 0KAY.
She was much too pretty and much too depressed
they saw the beauty && overlooked the mess.  
sometimes you just have to let go
no matter how bad you know it's going to hurt
because holding on hurts even more Burning pictures turn to ash
speed this up so we can crash
teenage romance will never last
oh heartbreaker, kill me fast  
You know, I saw you today, just when I thought
I was beginning to forget you. The instant that I saw you,
I got nervous, my stomach began to turn, & I almost started
crying & as much as I didn't want to look at you,
I couldn't take my eyes off you I never used to cry. Then this plague of unhappiness devoured me
& I can't seem to stop. Those days of being the tough girl
came to an end a long time ago.  
You know you like her ;
Would it kill you to admit it?
Maybe treat her halfway decent?
She deserves it, you know.
She won't wait around for you forever,
& you'll regret it. Yeah, drama isn`t something you bring upon
yourself. someone else has to be jealous to
cause it; because they just want something
you have [ & they know they can't take it ]  
im scared because i
dont want anyone
else to have your
heart. you know it might be more than friends
when he tells you his favorite bands and
you listen to their songs so at least you
have something in common.  
when you arent around, i
think of a million things to
say to you .. but when youre
around, they all disappear. so just live, have a wonderful
time, and make mistakes. but
never second guess where youve
been, where you are. and most of all,
where youre going.
++ sex and the city  
sometimes i wish you
hated me. i really do.
maybe then i wouldnt
have to sit there everyday
being your best friend
and know that i
couldnt have you. take no one for granted.
because the truth is ..
no one waits forever.  
as we saw, life is too short. so
if you see happiness, grab on to it
and never let it go.
++ DESPERATE HOUSEWiVES _ ive been sleeping with the lights
on so if i wake in the night, your
picture is clearly in sight  
sweet like candy to my soul
sweet you rock and sweet you roll
lost for you .. im so lost for you
you come crash into me
and i come into you.
++ DAVE MATTHEWS BAND _ i wanna be the one you can kiss & hold
in front of your friends & not feel the
slightest bit embarassed  
every second chance
begins with a first step
* Step Up * you know those suicide stories
where everyone jumps off a building to kill themselves?
people do that to see who comes running up those 20
flights of stairs to save them; to stop them from jumping.
it's sad that the unfortunate few who do actually jump
have no one coming to their resuce.  
all you need is faith & trust & a little pixie dust.
hold my hand, we'll make it, i swear –
++TINKERBELL you've got me second guessing my feelings for you.
I'm not sure if it's you or what you represent that's got me sprung.
but my mind is going crazy and I can't think straight anymore.
you're haunting me, and breaking me down one step at a time  
if you're plan to show her off down the
hallway in front of my face was to try to
make me feel even worse about myself,
trust me, it worked don't worry, you're nothing special -
just everything I could ever want for
the rest of my life <3  
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| Total Subscribers: 116 So I'm going to stop complaining, because I'm sure it's getting annoying. so whatever. I'm going to post up quotes. and if you take them, give me credit. If you lyke them, comment me. If you subscribe, thanks<3 quotes: 30
icons: 30 sometimes you want somthing so bad
that you're afraid of the consequences
are you really afraid of the consequences?
or are you afraid of what you really want? sometimes love sucks
& that's why you're saying you're miserable
watching other people fall for each other
but then on the other hand you think
i wish that was me  
i try to clear my mind..
forget all the times you lied
all the times you made me cry
every time you said good-bye
each time you just walked by
but for it's impossible to do
cause i can't look at anything
Without thinking about you everytime i see you i want nothing more
then for you to walk up to me &
hold my hand like before.
but this time i wouldn't let you go <|3  
you know you're in love when you realize
you found the person you'd die for if there's a reason, its lost on me,
maybe we'll be friends, I guess we'll see
-» Third Eye Blind  
When there's something you really
want in life, fight for it...don't give
up, no matter how hopeless it seems.
Even when you've lost all hope, years
from now you're gonna look back and
wish you gave it one more shot because
the best things in life don't come for free. keep your head up;
your colors are so beautiful.
when they say you should give up,
just raise the volume on your radio.  
Now that's frustrating, when what your brain
tells you, you want & what you actually want don't
match up. Its exhausting. &, well, its complicated.
But that's life. & life SUCKS
* Grey's Anatomy * Boy, i feel sorry for you, ya know
you used to have girl that would
do anything & give anything for you
but you paid her no attention &
now you're lost & confused,
good job.  
There's nothing like the deep breaths after laughing that hard.
Nothing in the world is like a sore stomach for the right reasons. people are gunna disappoint you
I get that .. I kind of expect that,
but I don't know, what if you
wake up one day & realize that
you're the disappointment  
it's like you want to show that special someone
why you love them right then and there, but
it takes a lifetime to show that person and that's
the beauty of love and what makes it lasts <3 holding hands, they walk along
inside their hearts, they're
singing their favorite song  
sweetheart, you can't bullshit me. see i've lied to
myself enough to know when someone else is
doing it. so let's try this again, and how about
the truth this time ? <3 climb out on this rooftop
and stare at the city lights below us
this world belongs to us tonight  
and even though i remind myself that we'll
probably never be together, i still won't let
myself fall for anyone else <3 kisses are dangerous things to just throw around
what means one thing to you could mean
a lot more to someone else <3  
she's the cliche of a teenage tragedy
a band-aid on her heart and a bruise
on her arm where her heart was once on her sleeve <3 and I'm sorry about the phone call; and waking you.
I know that it is late. But thank you for talking,
because I needed to. Some things just can't wait.  
When people don't laugh at our jokes,
I don't think of it as a,
"You had to be there" thing.
It's more like a,
"You have to be mentally retarded" thing.
she's that kinda girl that sits on her bed alone,
hugging her pillow & waiting for a phone call
that's never going to come  
im sick of always coming home & crying.
im always feeling like dying. im tired of putting
forth effort & tired of trying. im tired of
swollowing my pride and sighing. i want to
feel different than feeling hurt all the time.
showing my feelings is my biggest crime. i want
to be able to smile without having to fake it.
i dont want to give up on life .. just not yet.
i do wanna make it.
another year, another new start
memories will fade but stay in your heart
so make the best of the beginning
& just have a blast, but dont forget
about the happiness in the past  
theres a difference between pretty & beautiful
when someone is pretty, they have a good
apperance. but when someone is beautiful,
they shine on the inside & out i have e v e r y t h i n g i want ..
just not what i need. i have everything to live
yet somehow -- i still can't breathe  
GiiRL: How long will you love me?
B0Y: How long is the universe?
GiiRL: Silly, the universe doesn't end..
B0Y: Silly, that's how long i`ll love you... forever. a BEAUTiFUL girl
w/ G0RGE0US eyes. a hidden world of
[HURT && LiES]
it`s hard for her to realize. . .
L0VE* isn`t all about
the B U T T E R F L i E S Z . . .  
from all the crazy pictures;;
to the hilarious recordings on cell phones
from fighting over hott guys
to pairing up the perfect couples
from laughing until we literally cry or pee our pants
to being there for each other when we really do cry
::best friends forever;; If you think the sunset is pretty;
oh just wait ; wait till you look into his eyes  
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| Total Subscribers: 112 wow. one subscriber in almost a month. I'm so loved.
Idk what I'm going to do about this. whatever I guess.
I'm just going to randomly update now, because obviously
It's too hard for you guys to give me a measly 5 cmnts on
every entry, so whatever. I'm enjoying this less+less. so
this may be the last update for awhile, but who cares.
this is one of my longest posts lyke ever. so plz,
be appreciative this time? I'd love you to.
oh+I got a new layout. what do you think of it?  
if it makes you happy
it cant be that bad
if it makes you happy
then why the hell are you so sad
apologizing is like white-out
it covers up the mistake
but it never really goes away
you've got three choices in your life
give up, give in, or give it your all
 
You might as well
call me blind 'cause
i never saw you coming. Here i go again ;
Chasing someone
who has no intention
of letting me catch
him. I've seen love die way too many times.
Especially when it deserved to be alive.  
The cutest thing about you is the
way that you are always singing a song
even when no one is listening. It kind of breaks your heart, the way she
has to smile around him, the way
she can't stay mad.. Because she doesn't
have a clue that it'll never last. And in ten years when we pass
eachother on the street, I'll turn my head
and pretend I didn't see you. But just
remember that I am so proud of who you've become.  
So I push myself a little bit harder, c'mon one more try,
'cause I'm just not ready to give up yet. She's a hippie at heart; born into a different century;
but all she really wants is for people to get along;
she'd trade the fighting for true freedom. I want to be like the seashell you find
washed along the tide. beautiful, flawless,
and special in your eyes.  
she's just the type of girl who says that
she don't care. but deep inside ; you're the
only thing she actually cares about you said " i love you " and i said it too,
the only difference is i didnt lie to you. my heart is telling me that you`re the one
i'm gonna be with for the rest of my life <3  
You're only young once, so be bad,
break the rules, get caught & make it count. it was over from the start
you completely stole my heart
& now you won't let go
i never even had a chance you know
you had me from hello where my future leads
i don't know, but if you're not there
i don't wanna go..  
life's too short to worry about
what people think.
do what you want, as long as you have fun.
sleep until 1:30 PM and stay up until 3 AM.
make your own clubhouse.
write your own story.
make a tent and camp outside.
play dress up.
take silly pictures.
see how high you can go on the swings.
have a tickle fight.
sew your own clothing.
throw a water balloon at your ex.
LiVE LiFE :) Out of all the stupid things I’ve said,
which are countless, I have never wanted
to take something back more than
the one that drove you away. It sounds so cliche, but I'm sick of waiting.
I don't want to talk and I don't want to listen.
I just want you to put your arm
around my waist and kiss me.  
there are plenty of good reasons to hate me.
i just don't want people to hate me cause
of half-truths, lies & rumors.
sometimes it's the tears that make you laugh love is when he gives you a piece of your soul
that you never knew was even missing there will always be those girls you
can't believe you were friends with,
the boys you cant believe you kissed
and that one boy you can't believe you
l i v e d w i t h o u t When you move on, remember me;
remember us and all we used to be.  
We spend our whole lives searching
for all the things we think we want;
Never really knowing what we have. Say the first thing that comes
into your head when you see me.
If it looks like it works and
it feels like it works, then it works. I'm the new berlin wall. Just go ahead.
Try and break me down.  
Because we are what we are
& sometimes that's not enough. She stayed up all night crying & ripping out
all the pages in her notebook filled
with his name. Only to hear the next day
that he had changed his mind ;
but suddenly he wasn’t worth it anymore. I'll remember all the laughter
as we go our separate ways,
but there's so much we're
still learning and we can't be afraid.  
a real friend? she's not the one
who'se nice to your face..
no, she's nice to you behind your back. Sometimes you just
need to be with the
person who makes
you smile. even if
it means waiting. I'm sorry to say it, but you look like you're sad
Your smile is gone, I noticed it bad
The secret's if you let in just a little more love
I promise you this, a little's enough.  
We've gotten good at eye contact
While regurgitating lies
Learn to swallow hard so we won't cry. i know i say that im just fine
but i hope you wonder from time to time. Sometimes no matter how
much faith we have, we lose
people. But you never forget them
and sometimes its those memories
that give us the faith to go on.  
her smile was fake
her laugh covered up tears
it was all too much for her to take
she always acted like nothing was wrong
even when she hated being alone the things we crave most
destroy us the quickest.
Sometimes people play hard to get
to know that the other person's feelings are real. Letting someone in
sometimes means
abandoning the walls
you've spent your
whole life building.  
And I'm blasting my music so I won't hear my thoughts,
but it's stupid because the lyrics just remind me
of what I'm trying to forget.
how did you manage to get all these people to sing about you? Sunny days wouldn't be special if it wasn't for rain;
& joy wouldn't feel so good if it wasn't for pain;
Death's gotta be easy because life is hard;
It'll leave you physically, mentally & emotionally scarred  
rock some music on my radio
put on my vicoria secret underwear;
my BIG sunglasses
dance in front of my mirror
sing into my hair brush && wear my
hair on top of my head like theres NO
T O M O R R O W <3 You know me, the real me.
You know that I'm normal & that I hurt inside,
everyone thinks that I'm always happy cause
I'm always smiling, I go to school & in the halls
I have people come up to me & ask me how I do it
how I am always happy. I just smile & shrug
my shoulders, cause deep down inside, I know I'm not.. she's the girl everybody comes to with their problems.
she always has the answers.
but what happens when she cant use her own advice.  
&& she drew chalk hearts on the side walk
just so the rain could come and wash them away When I didn't matter to you, I started
to wonder if I ever mattered to anyone If we're perfect for each other, and if we're meant
To be with each other, we will be with each other.
Maybe not now, or tomorrow, but Later, and I
can promise you that  
Fate only takes you to a certain point.
after that it's up to you to make it happen It's so weird, you know? How we always inevitably
find ourselves wanting to run back to the ones
we used to love, and for some reason we think it will work
out differently the second time around. dont regret what you said
regret what you didnt say
when you had the chance  
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